I’ve been a faithful avid Grey’s Anatomy fan for fifteen seasons. I’ve seen Every. Single. Episode.  Most more than once. Every Thursday, like clockwork, me, Greys, and a hefty bowl of popcorn. It was my don’t talk to me time. Unless I had something I couldn’t reschedule,  I didn’t miss it. Even if I did,  I have trusty ole’ Hulu.  I fell in love with some of my favorite actors and actresses watching Greys. When Denny, George, Lexi, Mark, and Derek died I was devastated as if they were friends of mine. When Christina, April, Arizona, and Izzy left, oh, Lord help me. But, I didn’t hurt alone half the world shared in my grief.  It’s a sad day when you feel more for a televised fictional character than you do for most real-life people. But, what is worse? It’s as common as a common cold. But, that is not the reason I stopped watching Greys Anatomy (& a few other shows) I have a bigger more personal story of conviction surrounding my BIG decision. This a very new and recent development.

If you are a Shondaland fan you understand the content she and her writers, write and produce into her shows. They are dramatic, provocative, and borderline rated R at best. For fifteen full seasons, this didn’t bother me. I would blush right through the scene and move on. The fact that the main character, Meredith Grey (Ellen Pompeo)  covers her sorrows with random sexual partners and tequila. And, every character has switched sexual partners more enough times to keep the avid watcher confused. Then let’s not forget about the whole Sylphis episode, Olivia the “Syph nurse” (season 1 episode 9). Remember with everything I am listing here, I’ve been an avid fan and an obviously confused Christian.

I’ve also seen every single episode of Law and Order SVU, Criminal Minds and Manifest. They are my shows, never miss one. Fans like myself are why Hulu and DVR’s are in demand. People have teased me about my limitless fandom when it comes to all of these shows, I didn’t care, I liked loved them. I watched everyone week after week, season after season. As well as continuing my walk with the Lord. I Spent more time watching “my shows” then I did going to church. Still, this is not the reason I chose to stop watching. 

After the Winter Premiere (season 15 episode 9) Shelter in the Storm, I felt seriously more convicted that I have been about anything in a very long time. What’s worse, is after conviction set in, I allowed my girls (ages 12 & 17) also avid fans watch it. Bad Mom award of the year here. So, then it was conviction times infinity. I felt terrible. I failed my girls and I failed God. I had to ask God to forgive me, as well as my daughters for not just allowing them to watch, but for allowing it after I felt convicted about it.

See, even a baby Christian knows the bible says in Psalm 101:3

I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. Psalm 101:3. 

I’ve heard it before, even read it before but never even once thought to apply it to this area of my life. I always applied it to things such as pornography.  Like most Christians as long as I avoided pornography I was in the clear. See, it says “NO WICKED THING” before my eyes. So, then I tried to justify my love for these shows because they are not wicked, just a little bad. The more I thought about it I looked up the definition of the word

evil or morally wrong.
“a wicked and unscrupulous politician”
synonyms: evil, sinful, immoral, wrong, morally wrong, wrongful, bad, iniquitous, corrupt, black-hearted, ungodly, unholy, irreligious, unrighteous, sacrilegious, profane, blasphemous, impious, base, mean, vile;

Wow, just wow! Wicked actually means so much more. I had to do some mental and actual housecleaning, which will continue. There are so many movies, television shows, and songs that fall into this category. If glorifying God is our intentional pursuit how could subject my eyes, ears or even daughters to this wickedness?

In a blog recently I stated we are called to be holy, in the world but not of the world. But, was I in and not of? I have felt firm in my faith for years and never thought about this.  See, the drift towards worldliness is subtle, gradual and internal. And, if we assume were immune to it. that’s a great indication the drift has already begun.

I love God, I know he loves me. But, had become spiritually lazy (in this area) and complacent.  And, these shows were a clear indication of drifting in the wrong direction without even knowing it, which is the most dangerous kind of drift. I know we can not be lazy in what we let our minds absorb.  The Bible says in Philippians 4:8-9

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you. Philippians 4:8-9

See, applying what God direction in Psalms 101:3 and Philippians 4:8-9 (and these are just two of the many many scriptures provided for us) how can I continue to put myself or my daughters in front of something wicked? Exactly, I can’t not in good conscience and continue to be right in the sight of God.

Like all my blog closings I will challenge you. I challenge you to pray and ask God what all do you have at home, in your car, or even on your phone that would fall under wicked (remember it’s so much more than we think) and to help you remove it. Remember, our temporary gratification will never be better than our eternal destination.

With love, Keep your coffee hot and your prayers hotter,

Hollie McCalip