I just finished cooking, serving, and cleaning up breakfast in this beautiful hotel suite my husbands employer has provided for us. While we await our move to Colorado date. It is beautifully decorated, not just clean but Hollie version of clean. They provide us with a studio apartment complete with a kitchen that has a full size refrigerator and dishwasher bonus and bonus. They have impeccable customer service and always seem eager and seriously happy to help us with anything we need. Every morning a smiling housekeeper comes by and ask if we need anything. We exchange used towels for clean ones, exchange bags of trash for trash bags and of course get bathroom necessities we may need. It is also conveniently located near any type of store you may need. Including my favorites, Target, Mardel’s, and Hobby Lobby, dream location right?

This move we have known about for quite some time so we began packing a good six weeks prior to our move date. Each box is marked with its contents as well as wrapped in bubble wrap and marked with a big orange”Fragile” stickers if needed. We found storage where they waived the deposit because it was such a short term. We have our new home in Colorado Springs, lease signed, and utilities in our name. We even have it where the first day the internet, phone, and cable will be installed. We had zero deposit on all utilities and only fifty dollars for the internet, phone and cable combined. We get one week in Oklahoma City before we finally moved to see all of our friends and family we won’t see for a while. Everything has worked out beautifully thus far. So, why am I sad and emotional? Well, I am human and think well it has worked out almost too beautiful, and I am waiting for the ball to drop somewhere. Not a very faithful Christian attitude, I know. But, I know in the back of my mind our whole world as we know it is about to be turned upside down.

As excited as I am to get this next adventure started and get moved to Colorado Springs. I am equally torn. I am worried, anxious and mentally not prepared. When we move my husband and I both will be leaving behind all but one of our combined seven children and all of our seven grandchildren. We so easily took for granted they were only two hours away and after next week they will be about nine hours away. We are not leaving small children when it comes to our kids, they are 24, 24, 21, 19, 18, 18, and 13. But, I don’t think them being adults makes it any easier. My 18-year-old is moving out for the first time {insert ugly cry here}. It’s crazy to think how fast time has flown.

See when our children are little we protect them as much as we can, and pretty much at all cost. The instinct to do this does not lessen as they grow older. If anything it increases. However, the truth is we have a minimal role physically in their protection as they grow older. This is such a hard thing to except. When something happens in their life where they need mom, I am not closely available to them. For a mom, this is a heartbreaking realization. I know all you mommas out there with grown children can relate.

See, in this move this far with all the planning, preparing, packing, lifting, and staying beautiful hotels, the biggest mistake I made was not realizing we have our babies, we raise them, we instill a good foundation, we prepare them the best we can and we release them, Roots & Wings. Yes, we release them into the great unknown. See, with all the unknowns in this world the one thing I failed to keep in mind is I serve a great God. A God where nothing is unknown to him. In Luke 12:7 it says But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows.

If he has knows the number of hairs on their heads and as noted in Psalm 139:13
For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
My substance was not hidden from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

Why should I worry? I have covered them in prayer from the moment they were born, I have instilled Godly virtues to the best of my ability. The only thing I can do at this point is to pray. Continue to pray long and hard for each one. Be available for biblical based motherly counsel when possible, and of course try to the best of my ability to be an example of a Godly wife, mom, and friend. It is funny how God can take a beautiful hotel room and orange fragile stickers to teach you a lesson in faith. Sometimes, we just need a beautiful hotel room, orange stickers, and gentle reminders.

Hollie McCalip